Sunday, October 7, 2007
my parallel lives intersect
Corp closet: I am just in B bar with Reli.
Partner: Bakit naglalasing ka? May problema ka no’? (in a jovial manner)
CC Wala naman. (sounding tentative) Basta gusto ko lang mag-unwind
P Kahapon ka pa sad. Bakit ba?
CC Wala.
P Ano, yung boytoy mo hiniwalayan ka? Depressed ka?
CC Ano ba… And besides mag-uusap naman tayo when you get here next week
P Anong pag-uusapan ba natin? Parang kinakabahan ako
CC Basta… Naman, wag kang kabahan… wala lang…
P Sige na. Ayoko ng ganito Pagiisipin mo ako.
CC I don’t want to say this over the phone.
P Hay naku. Mas lalo akong kinakabahan. You have to give me the gist of what you’ll say.
CC Not now… okay lang, don’t think about it
P I will not stop thinking about it until I know what it will be about
CC I just want to … review our relationship, for the past two years
P Review? Review what?
CC Well, I just want to tell you about how it has been for the past two years… and maybe discuss with you directions
P Directions? Di pa ba malinaw?
CC Partner, I just want to be honest…
P Ah past two years. This is exactly like how it was with your ex. You will be telling me na you have been fooling around, too (tone getting serious)
CC Well… I want it to be discussed
P Tell me what outcome you want out of that conversation
CC I cant decide on that unilaterally
P Not that you’re making a decision. Ano ang gusto mong mangyari after that conversation.. Hiwalayan na ba?
CC no.. I want an open relationship.
P Ah… itutuloy na natin yung pinagusapan natin
CC (silence)… I really want to tell you in person
P Ngayon na. Tell me. So ganun na nga.
CC Okay,,, if you really want to discuss now… Ill start this properly. You know that I love you so much, partner…
P (interrupts) Yeah yeah, I’ve heard that before..
CC But… it is a love that is imperfect and unfaithful. Di ko kayang maging faithful while you’re away
P Mayroon na bang iba? May kapalit na ba ako?
CC Walang kapalit. But
P But there’s someone you see on a regular basis?
CC Yes
P Hay… sabi ko na nga ba. Sino na nakakakilala sa kanya?
CC the barkada…
P Anong sabi nila?
CC Wala naman. Okay lang kasi di naman yun first time na may nangyaring ganun. Di ba si Winston rin?
P Akala ba nila mayroon rin ako?
CC They’ve asked me whether I think you have one, too. I told them I really don’t know. And I don’t suspect that you do.
P Di ba sabi ko eh yun lang ang gusto ko sana – discreet ka. Di mo pa ginawa.
CC Kasi this thing started before we had that conversation.
P Sa Monday na tayo mag-usap. (hangs up the phone)
then the text above was sent
i knew it but i never expected u wld already hav that kind of care or 'love' for d guy. i cld readily understnd sexual relationships but love relationship is quite alarming. does he know me? or hav u talked about me with him?
my reply
he knows everything about u. M so sori.
o,ohhh, frm hubby No. 1???? Hope d troika thing is still open...
ReplyDeletei dont know outcome yet.
ReplyDeletebut at least its out in the open now...
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ReplyDeleteWow...that is such a big step for you from when we did our podcast dicussion.
ReplyDeletei just hate october...a month of disaster.
ReplyDeleteall the best...
hey tony. big step. but a step closer to some peace
ReplyDeletei broke up with my previous ex oct too. you must be right, dats.
finally the shuffling of cards has ended.
ReplyDeleteand the stakes are higher.
i bet you're going all in.
i really do hope that you would win something from this poker of yours.
tapos na ang pag-iwas pusoy, filli. i enjoyed the ride. now its clean up time. messy but someone's got to do it.
ReplyDeleteknows everything about u... ouch.
ReplyDeletei had to let it all hang out, late reader...
ReplyDeletedang! sigh. tsk. pura vida! :)
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