an episode in desperate housewives S3

tom and lynette recently opened their own business, an italian restaurant. tom becomes injured, debilitated and they hired a gorgeous, hunky chef/manager. the 'dance' between lynette and chef start at day 1, instant attraction. but all subdued, all within a safe zone between friendly and flirty. and it was slowly progressing. from subtle compliments to after-work dinner for two, winding down. the attraction is palpable yet deniable.

up until a situation puts them in a compromising stance. husbands smells something fishy, surreptitiously confronts chef to stay away. chef is defiant, aware that the attraction is strong.

he finally confronts lynette, openly acknowledges what has been transpiring between them. but contrary to his expectations, she fires him.

why did you have to say it? it was going on just fine the way it was. neither of us had to leave our comfort zones. leaving the emotions unspoken allowed me to dream my dreams without hurting tom. i was feeling beautiful and special again. but now all that is gone. i will never leave tom for you. that's your dream, not mine. and not you've ruined mine.

i thought we could continue with this ambiguity, with this amorphous thing we had. only because i didnt want to presume anything. i didnt know whether the attraction was there. had i known it, and had we acknowledged it, i would have nipped this in the bud. not because you are not attractive. on the contrary, you are quite a charmer. but. but. but.

now that is out in the open, it must be severed. it cannot go on. i will bleed a little but i will move on.

interesting turn of events. it had me puzzled, too, thinking that it was going to become a full-blown affair for lynette. but hearing her made me realize where lynette was coming from. and i totally understood.

full moon view, spoiled

it should have been really romantic. a full moon tonight. but the weather all but obscured the sight. it would have been lovely for a stroll in the park.

another emo moment from cc.

dinner with a provoq_ateur

a friend of mine brought a date to dinner tonight, a provoq model. right off, its the bulging biceps you'll notice and the broad, broad shoulders. face is cute, not really gwapo. but overwhelming sex appeal. A.L. was actually quite pleasant, down-to-earth. i didnt even recognize him till my friend mentioned that he was A.L. he looked right at ease with the pink group he was part of.

looks like my friend will be in for a nice ride tonight. some guys have all the luck. and the cash. :)

"cc, the bachelor" cancellation

please be informed that the show "cc, the bachelor" was abruptly pulled out by the producer from the season line-up. we have been informed that after filming a few of the challenges, the bachelor himself requested that all events be stopped.

we are still speculating at this sudden change of heart. meanwhile, all the contestants have been brought back to their respective residences. some of them are reported to be so disappointed they are planning to pursue a formal complaint. AP

its 3am

i cant sleep. i was actually in bed by 1230am. then woke up at 2am. and i couldnt sleep anymore. up to now, i am overwhelmed. i still couldnt believe that it will finally happen for me.

yes it was foretold last year.
yes it was again affirmed recently.
but im still dazed that it will finally unfold.

and i look back at the signs and portents.
all true, all good, all on schedule.
with uncanny accuracy.

i need my sleep. i need to dream it all again. and wake up full, refreshed and alive.
slumber, stop being elusive. bring me down.

just another story: matthew

lets call him matthew. matthew is just another regular PLU, SS07 (single since 07). it was a rather ugly break-up. one that he never saw coming. still feeling the pain, he sought solace and comfort in trying to divine his future. the palm reader he consulted was not run-of-the-mill, and came with excellent references. he heard what he wanted to hear: by mid next year you will meet your soul mate, a mestizo. and that will last for a long, long time.

patiently he waited what seemed like too long. but he kept the faith even as there were opportunities for relationships that came his way. they didnt seem to match what was foretold. but he really didnt let the reading lead his life. he remained open, dated a variety of faces, bodies and attitudes to match. there were however some dates that matthew thought could be THE one. and he tried to go with the flow. for one reason or the other, the flow stopped somewhere. but that didnt stop him from 'enjoying' his single-ness, and indulging in his passions.

so towards the predicted middle of the year, matthew became hopeful, optimistic even. he knew soul mate would soon be knocking on his door. and he opened his horizons to meet people. parties, dinners, activities, he attended them all and kept his eyes open. blind dates he actually agreed to. just to make sure that the universe gets help in conspiring to get him hooked with soul mate.

middle of the year came and went. no soul mate. matthew slowly opened up to the possibility that it was not going to happen. that palm reader was wrong. so he decided to change gears and just focus on himself, on his family, on his businesses. he abstained from casual sex and even turned celibate. he became super busy with a zillion activities and projects. and he was determined to sculpt his body the way he has always wanted.

in between there would be facebook and all the other sites he would regularly visit. and the requests to be added as a friend. some were actually quite attractive on screen. so he would send a flirty message or two, but not believing it would go anywhere.

he was almost successful until he attended two weddings. then he became wistful again. then he started to pine again. surely if it could happen to them, it could happen to me, he thought.