partner arrived last saturday afternoon. enigma and i were together till saturday lunch. he was still making light of the situation, still teasing me that i must be very excited. we went to the mall to take lunch and i had to leave him to fetch partner.
partner and i spent the afternoon to early evening playing badminton with friends, friends who were with enigma and me just last weekend. they were having a ball teasing me quietly.
we were supposed to go out, malate or makati but we ended up at the unit. he was leaving the following day. though there was a lot of intimacy, (hugging and kissing), we curiously did not 'consumate'. hmmm.
i didnt get in touch with enigma the entire time. neither did he.
but after partner left, i texted him, inviting him to dinner. all i got was "busy" as reply.
uh-oh. not good. not good. i asked him how he was. ":(" and as i pressed on - "m sad and lonely pero wala akong magawa"
reality sets in for us. pain is part of this affair. i was dreading that he might just opt to quit. we didnt see each other that night. what a waste.
following day was a little better. we saw each other in the mall. strained at first. awkward. not knowing how to talk to each other. i asked him how he was. "kailangan ok ako, di ba?" and asked him about the text. he hesitated discussing it. "kasi wala naman akong magagawa, di ba?" "honestly, may magagawa ba ako? di ba dapat ibahin ko ang nararamdaman ko? yun lang ang pwede"
we didnt spend the night together though things lightened up shortly after. i brought him to the terminal.