Saturday, February 9, 2008

April 22, 2000 - February 7, 2008


here lies the relationship with partner.

the first smile exchanged was a few days before his birthday.
the final goodbye a few days before mine.

it started with so much love. began in a sordid party but made real in the beauty of batanes, on top of a rock solid. overlooking a sunset.
it ended in a phone call, in an office, on rainy day.

it came to life, a day before Easter.
It turned to dust, a day after Ash Wednesday.

it was simple and beautiful at first: trust, honesty, open communication and making the other feel important, and loved.
towards the end, it became complicated, dirty, deceitful, dishonest and making the other feel ugly, unwanted and unloved.

from love to hate
from hope to despair

here lies what could have been
and what shouldnt have happened

21 comments:

gharyjohn said...

i'm sorry to hear, CC.

but there is more to life. when things go wrong, wag nang piliting gawing tama kasi lalong sasama.

here's to life!!!!!

THE VOYAGER said...

i can help but be sad with what happened to you and your partner. seven years is seven years. it is a fact that what you've shared is something no one can take it apart from you. it seven years is worth fighting and salvaging for, then work it out if there is still room for reconciliation. but if it letting go means moving on, then accept the pain and resentment you'll go through. cc, learning the art of letting go is one of the hardest part we all go through but the beauty while learning is nevertheless inevitable. i wish you the best that life has in stored for you after closing the book called CC & PARTNER.

Quentin X said...

I don't like goodbyes. :( I do feel for you, CC.
Stay strong and look after yourself. Keep that chin up. What doesn't kill you will only make you stronger.

BoobooStrider said...

wow, ang haba ng mga relationships mo . sorry to hear about the break up.

Anonymous said...

Don't be sad that it ended.
Be glad, IT happened.

D.C.

JOSH said...

hey, welcome back to being a bachelor! ...

Anonymous said...

wow. 7 years. thats a lot.

closet case said...

thanks, people, for the kind words. i will move on. but i will grieve for now. i will do my crying and then i will pack it all up in a suitcase and store it somewhere.

again, many thanks...

Anonymous said...

hi cc!

sorry to hear about the end of your relationship.

i feel your pain halfway across the world.

london boy

dyakks said...

i have been a forever lurker of ur blog..but i cant help but comment on what happened...

just remember..what doesnt kill u..makes u stronger..

=)

closet case said...

thanks for the consoling words, london boy and dyakks. ill make it through. if not sooner, later.

fratboyinthecloset said...

Just wanted to let you know. You've got friends both in the real and blogger's world. We are here to support you.

I've been busy the past week and wasn't able to blog hop. Was surprised when I read the last two entries. Hope you are doing ok.

Love lots,
fratboyinthecloset (FBITC)

jon said...

hi cc...

giving yourself some time and space to grieve will help you come to terms with what happened to your relationship with your partner.

i broke up with mine 4 months back. he chose another person over me. i went through several phases before i got over the hurt and the pain. denial...then hatred...then numbness...then acceptance...

i am happier now that i am single again. i am enjoying the freedom of being by myself again. my world revolved around him then. but he did not appreciate that at all before...but now, that i am not with him, he said he does...

we're still friends...chats...phone calls...

but i've turned the page and ended that chapter in my life. no more turning back...

only you can tell when you'll get to that stage...of not crying anymore...

but do allow yourself time to grieve...

i am grieving for you as well...

from someone who's been there...

jon

closet case said...

FBITC, i really feel this kinship with all of you. so this is as real for me as the real world. coping is the best i could say. thanks

hey jon. your experience gives me hope. i will recover. will move on. i hope to be friends with him, too, someday.

Dave Ramirez said...

acceptance is the absolute solution to a grieving heart.

what has happened can never be brought back.

there would be a lot of "what ifs" right now but it would be better to leave everything as they are- and move on to a new chapter in life.

*lots of hugs*

jetblue said...

omg cc! im so sorry ive been so bz that i havent bin blog surfing lately.. sheesh i cn only imagine what you are goin thru right now.. u know that if i cud, id hold ur hand and help u weather this out.. hay i cn only pray that things get better from here on.. miz u friend..

closet case said...

true, dave. and i accept i must. i dont do the what-ifs either. im glad to be very busy that i dont have time for that. *hugs*

hey jetblue. no worries. i understand completely how busy you can get. i can already feel you holding my hand as you write this comment. it will get better, i believe. miss you, jetblue. hope you are having a great time there in ny/nj...

gibo said...

this is sad. break-ups, kahit pa liberating ito for some, are always a sad thing.

bluegreyx said...

from the undying words of gloria gaynor, i am sure that you will survive.

also hope that in time, things will be OK between the two of you as seven years is really quite a significant period to get comfortable with each other and be friends.

elfilli said...

*one big tight bear hug* :-*

closet case said...

hello gibo. sometimes, i feel consoled by the liberation the break up gave me. but such is short-lived. a break up also represents failure. and that hurts.

survive, i will, bluegreyx. i must. people depend on me. i offered the olive branch to him. he seemed not interested.

i hug you back, elfilli... thanks.