singles' awareness day made me very aware (and conscious) of my sudden state of single-blessedness. and despite my hectic schedule for today, i found time to indulge in a little self-pity.
growing up, i used to be struck by this seemingly inane question: is the zebra a black horse with white stripes or white horse with black stripes? (im using a zebra seahorse, my east-meets-west zodiac sign)
i found that the question goes to the heart of who I am. am i really a good person with bad habits (or weak control)? or am i a bad person with some good points on the side?
okay. that's a little extreme. but generally, i am wondering if my basic character is innately faithful and true, but just easily tempted. or am i really one horny promiscuous devil with periods of rest?
i find myself asking questions like these in the light of my recent single-ness. what will my next relationship be like? should i even have another relationship? should i just realize that im not 'relationship' material? i remain confused and back in square one.
11 comments:
no need to be in a "relationship" right away...
take some time off. enjoy the perks of being single again. this can be the best thing that ever happen to you...
-piscean-
ows CC. i feel ur a good person, 100% in and out, who just wanted to share d love to other souls, hehehe.
Tamang-tama, friday na naman ng lenten season, time for muni-muni and abstinence. And u'r truly r a participant already...
Hi CC. I just can't help thinking the logic behind your post :
Your equation :
Not relationship material = bad person with some good points = horny promiscuous devil
From a relatively harmless and not necessarily bad adjective of "not relationship material" to a "devil". Lol.
Let it be. Enjoy this phase. Or as Carrie would say :
“Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.”
D.C.
ui, soul-searching ang drama
I said this before and I'll say it again. The problem with (us) intellectual types (or at least who fancy ourselves as such) is that we over analyze things. We analyze things so much that we focus on a singular aspect and the we freeze.
Things are never simple....black and white? Please. Things are really shades of gray.
hi cc. pa-announce naman kung pwede ka nang ligawan. pipila ako. =) i dont want you sad anymore.
Ald
Well it just proves that you're a person. No one's perfect. We all have flaws and redeeming qualities as well. You were in a same sex relationship for 7 years. That's like an eternity for same sex relationships. Don't beat yourself up. It just didn't work out. Move on CC. You're a CATCH! Maybe you just need another horny devil to keep up with you... Smile Honey! Frowning causes wrinkles.
Hay naku CC, hindi ka kasi nakikinig sa mga sinasabi ko eh. Kaya ayan. =)
Cliche but true: Old habit die hard.
oh, the peril of not blog-hopping for a while ... just read your recent posts. i just hope you're coping well enough.
hey people. my lost soul thanks you for all your comments and apologizes for delayed reply (which will be explained in my next post):
- piscean: thanks, am in no hurry to get relationship mode.
- josh: salamat. maybe i still am good. and lent's the best time to think...
- dc: sorry for the perverted use of transitivity. i love that carrie quote. and in full. thanks. *hugs*
- ming: drama queen talaga
- lobster: sometimes we need that black and white dichotomy as the compass of our grey lives
- ald: thanks, ald. a new friend will work out fine to lift me up, out of the doldrums =)
- john: i need to smile more. thanks
- mcvie: i know i know i know
- stevie: does habit become character?
- jericho: im holding up well, thanks. and thanks for visiting...
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