SATC: are we there yet?

Season 4 Episode 11: coulda woulda shoulda

Miranda finds out she's pregnant. Charlotte finds out she can't get pregnant. Miranda struggles with the idea of abortion. Carrie lies to Aidan that she hasnt had an abortion. A lot of regrets along the way. Miranda wished she asked Steve to wear that condom. Charlotte wished she didnt 'save' herself during the early years had she known she wouldnt have gotten pregnant anyway. Carrie regrets not telling the father of her unborn child then about the child... and i quote...

so many roads, so many detours, so many choices, so many mistakes
as we drive along this road we call life, occasionally a gal will find herself a little.. lost
and when that happens, i guess she has to let go of the coulda woulda shoulda, buckle and just keep going
as we speed along this endless road towards the destination called who we hope to be
i cant help but whine... are we there yet?

particularly thought-provoking as i clean up a messy break-up... as i turn 4 decades++ in this world. am i there yet?

well, i am right where i want to be with my career. i have a great job. i work with great people. i get do to great work i am proud of.

i have a loving family. i am just so blessed with beautiful, understanding, loving parents. and caring, supportive siblings, in-laws, nieces and nephews.

i have different groups of friends, all of whom i adore in different ways. all of whom manage to greet me yesterday! 150 messages, non-duplicating!

i am working on a healthy, fit body that becomes a showcase for clothes and apparel i like =)

and i just failed in my last relationship of seven years. there i see the coulda, shoulda and woulda... and the most important learning of all - i should have just let him go as he embarked on the job posting in the province. i should have known the long-distance relationships were not my thing. i should have learned from my relationship with banker 1.

of course there are so many other regrets. but in the end, i still believe it all works out. there were reasons for these things to happen. and there were great lessons learned anyway. and when ill find that love again, ill be singing this Henry Mancini song (sung by Barbra Streisand - sorry i couldnt upload it)... here are the lyrics anyway

so often as i wait for sleep
i find myself reciting
the words i said or should have said
like scenes that need re-writing

the smiles i should have answered
doors perhaps i should have opened
songs forgotten in the morning light

if relive the roles ive played
the tears i may have squandered
the many pipers i have paid
along the roads ive wandered

yet all the time i knew it
love was always out there waiting
although i may regret a kiss or two

if i had changed a single day
what went amiss, what went astray
i may have never found my way to you

i wouldnt change a thing that happened
on my way to you


so am i there yet? i guess not. but i think, especially when it comes to love, the journey is the destination...