celiba-cc endeth

i really thought i could stretch it to forty days. spirit was willing... but flesh encountered temptation like no other.

legal eagle told me about him last year, a hot encounter somewhere. he gave me the number and we were texting. it didnt amount to anything. he was based in the southern tip of SLEX. and he didnt seem as interested. i checked his friendster account and was blown away by the pics. he was prime beef. and at that time, he already had 1000+ friends. (he looked like he was quite proud of the way he looked)

he was nice enough to greet me on my bday. and i did attempt to visit him down south. but too much hassle. so that was a contact that was to remain inactive... until last thur 1130pm.

i got a 'hey there' text from him, which was such a surprise. i replied with a tentative 'hi' and that started the correspondence. turns out that he's based nearer me so he's touching base with people around the area. lucky me.

and that correspondence, flirtation and all stretched to friday. and we set a date to meet up.

we were throwing questions at each other through text, attempting to get to know each other in a short span of time. one question i asked "do you have sex on the 1st date?" was answered with "only if i dont like the person as much." "because if i do, i want him to like me beyond sex." hmmm. good answer coming from a hunk like him.

perfect. im not planning to have sex either.

so we met up. he wanted to hang out in my place. no problem with that. we were having wine, good conversation when he popped the statement "lets make out". i didnt know if he was serious. and i started having nervous laughter. "im going to have to say no to that. not that you're not attractive. its just that i want to be celibate for this period. besides, that only means you actually dont like me a lot."

he went to my bedroom and took of his shirt. and revealed the massive chest and shoulders, the creamy white skin. and laid down. he motions me to sit down beside him. "whats this about"

"well, im just exercising some self-control. like i want to have sex only if i feel there's a future with the guy. i think ive had enough of casual sex with total strangers."

he looked at me, with those beautiful eyes. "im no stranger, right? and there might be a future here, right?" he teased me.

here was a person i used to just fantasize about. an image in cyberspace, with the great face and great body. here was that person, all ripe for the taking.

"i should be having sex only with my boyfriend-to-be." i gulped.

"then consider me your boyfriend for the next two hours." he pulled me close and kissed me.

and what followed was the end of a promise i wanted to keep, to be pure and chaste for a couple of weeks.