busy busy week

pressure! its april 6 and i've just put up one post for the month. apologies. even this long weekend is filled with activities.

the main reason for the silence is the limited blogging time. work takes priority always. and when i go home, i hardly have time to open mymac before ex arrives to 'sleep'.

yes, he is still around and yes, we continue NOT to speak a single word. however, he has started moving out some stuff and did not actually spend the night in the condo yesterday. so perhaps ill have more time alone after work to do some blogging.

so im sneaking this post in the middle of a get-together. hehehe. the host has got free wifi, my friend offered his laptop for use so i might as well put in some thoughts.

let me just share something that transpired during a trip to the beach last weekend.

i got invited by an acquaintance to an overnight stay at the beach. this gym buddy of mine was so nice to invite me, though for a moment i was thinking this might be architectural (i.e. drawing lang)

but it wasnt. and i ended up meeting two people ive been seeing in the gym regularly though not exchanging neither a handshake or a smile or a handjob. =)

but the four of us had a great time. we got to know each other so well during the overnight stay.

i must admit that for one of them, there was some sort of chemistry brewing, though i was being just friendly with all of them. i was noting, though, an occasional 'akbay' or 'lambing.' i had to brush it aside as simply part of female bonding.

we all slept on one bed, all four of us. Chemistry beside me (ill call him chemistry). even with the others there, i couldnt help but think that something might actually transpire.

i was having difficulty sleeping. there was a momentary commotion when i felt chemistry wake up for a brief time. and as he tried to get sleep again, he cuddled my arm. hmmmm.

i was lying there on my back stiff as a door nail. he had his arm around my arm. and i felt his free hand start to wander... from my belly to my chest. wow, chemistry was starting to get it on...

soon his hand had found home... and i found heaven. very slowly i faced him and we started some lip action... more lip action but very carefully. we didnt want to wake the others. more lip and hand action till we felt the futility of it all. we didnt want to wake the others by moving too much. so we ended up just cuddling until we unravelled to sleep.

the following day was like nothing happened. though an occasional wink and smile would give it away. that was enough for me. a furtive attempt at getting off, despite the odds!