ganito nga siguro habang tumatanda.
mas lalong nagiging emo.
dati ang term ay 'sensitive'
ngayon, emo na.
ang hirap lang isipin na parang di na marunong tumibok yung puso
yung tibok na pangmatagalan
maski sino siguro ang iharap sa akin
hanggang umpisa lang ang kilig
lalaho at magsasawa rin
sinusubukan ko naman
di ako nagkukulang sa pagsubok
kaya nga pinapasok yung gray area na yan
para hayaang mag-develop yung damdamin
kaso, maski mahaba man o maikli yung period na yan
yang situationship na yan, sa wala rin nauuwi
palapit pa naman ang birthday ko
akala ko maiiba na ang tema ng buhay ko
hay di pa rin
ang kailangan ko na sigurong tanggapin
ay talagang wala nang para sa akin
sa kalawakan ng mundong eto
kasi ako ang may problema
ako ang ayaw mag-commit
ako ang sawain
ako ang takot
sana mapigilan ko na rin ang sarili kong
magkagusto
para di na ako makasakit ng tao
kung bato rin naman na ang puso ko
sana isama na rin pati mata ko, pandinig ko
pakiramdam ko at puson ko
i swear this sounds like a telenovela monologue
apologies.
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hindi mo kailangang magapologize.
lahat dumaraan sa ganiyan
kahit yaong mga itinuturing na dumadaan sa quarter life crisis
it's a life long search
huwag ka lang maggive up
kasi darating din yan
advance happy birthday
bakit parating edad ang ginagawang rason? :(
So ano, magiging HALAMAN ka na lang?
Ay?! Hmmmmmmm, there's something-something there, ha! Ahahaha.
wala pa siguro talagang dumadating na para sa'yo kaya parang hindi tumitibok yung puso mo..
Do you think it's all in the state of mind?
I'm not being judgmental though.
Hey, be happy cc!
Your birthday is nearly coming, so many reasons to celebrate!
Cheers!
And curse gray area! :)
been your reader for quite a while and you seem to like being the one adored. why not try pursuing someone you really like who's oblivious to your presence? guys who are easy to bed are easy to forget. on the other hand, guys who want their suitors (?) go the extra mile are worth keeping.
challenge yourself. always getting what you want the easy way just dont cut it. i mean, aren't you tired of these situationships you're getting yourself into?
good luck and advance birthday greetings!
-piscean-
Part of reality: we grow old and we become disillusioned. No big deal, then. Expect "lovelessness" (or whatever the better term is) to creep into our existence.
Indeed, youth is wasted on the young.
Hi CC... Adv. Happy bday!! so kelan ba ang date natin ;D Akala ko ba nung Feb 14?
Well, all that have been said might be true. After all,normal lang siguro na makaramdam tayo ng ganito kasi this is the essence of our existence.. being human. We are guarded by our emotions, and these emotions are what we become... an aid to self healing, a sense of relief. In your case, maybe brought by maturity, that you are beginning to feel LIFE as it is. But despite the success, the MONEY, and the luxuries in life, or situationships. ... Could you really say you are indeed Happy? that being in LOVE and Happy be the same?
There is time for everything... a time to heal, a time to rest, a time to be happy, to reflect and ponder, and a time to be in-loved and be loved. CC cheer up... marami namang friends na nagpapaligaya sayo ...to fill the void temporarily inside, dba? Just wait and see what surprises installed for you this 2010. :D. Just don't think about it too much.. tatanda ka lang masyado nyan. hehe ;D
Tsaka always inspire us... im learning something new with your stories... ayaw mo ba yun? ;D
Smiling,
PG
Ang ironic lang. Ang galing galing mong corporate person, disciplined and all pero di mo matransfer yung skills mo sa relationships, di ka makapagfocus sa isa?
baka naman kasi gusto mo lang talaga maglaro so wag ka na mag-apologize.
ang wirdo lang na sinasabi mo di mo mapigilan. Baka namna ayaw mo talagang pigilan
CHOOSE DUDE! CHOOSE SEX! ITS COOL :)
Advance happy birthday, cc!
I've been following this blog. I may not always agree but I respect you. You need someone to tame you, hehe.
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