i mentioned previously of my conceit. proud peacock was one description in my high school yearbook. so exercising humility is a struggle. i hold my tongue when i want to brag about an achievement, a recognition, an acquisition. though sometimes, it would still slip out, and draw attention to itself.
today's gospel is the beautiful beatitudes. but as an important segue to that, st paul talks about how God chose the absurd, the dimwitted, the poor to shame the high and mighty. so if we must boast, they must boast only in the Lord.
boasting in the Lord. how would that go? my take on it: if there is anything i should be proud of, it is having been blessed with faith in Him. all others i should not boast about: looks, wealth, etc. because in the end, such things do not really matter.
the only thing that will matter, in the end, is that i have been chosen to be saved, to live a life with Him in the thereafter. that's the only thing i could bring with me beyond my grave.
proud ako kasi naniniwala at nananalig ako sa Diyos. dahil dito sa paniniwala ko, ang daming blessings na dumating sa buhay ko.
but beyond saying that, i should actually say
pero mas proud ako kasi dahil sa aking pananlig sa Diyos, kahit ano pa ang mangyaring di maganda sa buhay ko, etong faith ko ang magdadala sa akin upang malampasan ko ang aking mga pagsubok.
because I believe, because I have faith, I also have been blessed with a peace that no one can take away. i may lose everything tomorrow, all that i have and have worked for. but with that faith, i know, no, i am sure i will survive whatever tragedy.
my faith has given me spectacles to look at the attachments in my life with a paradoxical detachment. the negative feelings will pass through me and i will emerge more peaceful, yet again.
and this is what i should really be proud of!
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