Wednesday, April 15, 2009

cc situationship?

a few months back, i blogged about 'situationships', a term i heard from a friend who just visited manhattan. i found it so SATC-ish (ranks up there with frenemies and modelizer, SATC jargon!)

cc and moony were cuddling. cc got on top of moony, kissing him lightly on his belly as moony caressed cc's hair. cc looked straight into moony's eyes.

"i really, really like you, moony... i feel great being with you.... i love looking at you, kissing you, hugging you."

moony looked at cc, waiting to hear more.

"but i'm scared of commitment.... a part of me is still enjoying this single life. i'm not sure if i can already give it up."

"i'm not asking you to give it up, cc."

"yeah, yeah, i know." cc laid his head on his belly and looked away.

"are you happy where you are, cc?"

"well, yes... sometimes. but i also long for something more... stable."

"it looks to me like you are happy. and that's the only thing important for me now. i want you to be happy."

cc lifted his head, looked at moony eye's... those beautiful chinky eyes, so frank, so honest, so sincere.

"moony, i've been thinking... maybe we could get into some kind of relationship...

... with no commitments.." he looked at him, half expecting a mild reaction of distaste. but there was none.

"cc, isn't that what we have now? we are not committed. and i don't expect commitment."

"you mean that? you don't expect commitment? don't you wish that someday, it would be US?"

moony sighed. "i want you to be happy. and if being in this non-committal 'thing' will make you happy, then i'm happy."

moony cupped cc's face in his hands and gingerly looked at him. "cc, im already so happy just being with you, just spending time with you."

"but you'll get hurt, moony. i... i can't promise anything. and... i might.... i will... still have fun."

"would you get hurt if i played around, cc? what if i also played that game, how would you feel?"

"i'd get hurt. yeah. i'd get hurt. but i'll just bite my lip because these are the terms of the 'arrangement'."

moony laughed. "terms of the arrangement? when did we sign the contract? you're so funny, cc"

"i know i'll get hurt. sooner, later, i don't know. but hurt or pain, it's part of it. even if we had a real relationship."

"yeah. but it's a different kind of pain..."

"of course, cc... but, i'm happy now. i'm happy where i am... with you, here. and i hope you are, too"

cc lifted himself so he could kiss moony lightly on the lips. "i'm happy with you, too, moony..."

6 comments:

gibbs cadiz said...

leyshe, mai-podcast na nga si moony! dalhin na ang nasasakdal next time, lol! :) happy for you, too, teh! :)

A.F. (avid fan) said...

Wow! parang sine! =)

Well if you're indeed happy with moony, why don't you try (try lang naman) to have a commitment? Or just play it by ear, let it develop until you're ready haha.

Quentin X said...

Did you type this standing on one leg with eyes closed up in the clouds?
:-)

Anonymous said...

what's stopping you from jumping in?

Ming Meows said...

bottomline: cc is still enjoying the "free trial period".

oh, walang naman palang problema eh. rock on!

Ming Meows said...

ei, what happened pala to cuba?