Only during Undas

I'll only stay outside this Starbucks outlet during daytime on All Saints Day. Lovely overcast weather. Right after body scrub and massage across the circus or rotonda. I am still groggy.

I made up my mind to have a massage after a month. I told myself I'd like to remain chaste. So I totally avoided the wet areas.

I feel so smooth after the scrub. All the libag gone. Haha. First time to try this male therapist. Lets call him R. He was recommended by friends. I was surprised to see a big guy, with big hands. R started the massage. He was good and hard, the massage, I mean. And he didn't seem to be touching me with malisya, especially on my butt & a-hole. So I felt I was going to maintain my chaste status.

But when I flipped over, on my back now, as he was doing my thighs, I felt the light brushes against my genitals. And IT started to react. I wanted to think dead rats but I couldn't stop IT anymore. And R took this as approval for things to COME. He didnt even ask for explicit permission. And I was just too weak to resist.


I'm starting to feel the guilt, as I sit outside Starbucks. Hay. I slipped again. But you know what? I was able to maintain celibacy for more than a month. I guess I shouldn't be too hard on myself?