Saturday, November 10, 2007

a sigh of relief

partner arrived yesterday. the first time for us to see each other again since my 'disclosure of indiscretion'. the ice is thawing. i see him break into smile from time to time. he has been quite talkative again, particularly of his trip. he would still show signs of pain, of hurt. he'd let a couple of snide remarks on my infidelities, on my 'kakatihan' slip. but the best part was that he allowed me to hug and kiss him again. i feared he would reject my attempt at intimacy. he didnt. he didnt reciprocate as much but i will not push it.

he said it best before he left again this afternoon. 'pasensya ka na kung di pa rin ako masyadong normal. minsan naalalala ko pa rin. natutulala ako.' i acknowledged his feelings and told him i was already very happy that we were spending some time together again... that we were talking again.

he had to leave again but he promised to be back by wednesday, to see me off as i leave friday.

i am lucky. i am grateful for a person like partner.

7 comments:

John Halcyon von Rothschild said...

Am sure he loves you very much. There's not very many people in the world who can just look the other way and start again. Someday you both will look back and laugh...

Anonymous said...

hmmm. You are not lucky... you are blessed to have "partner". Cherish him and never stray again.

closet case said...

i feel blessed that i have met a person willing to work this relationship through, despite the pain i have caused. and i look forward to the time we will both laugh at this... thanks, john and anonymous reader!

JOSH said...

Just happy for u cc! :)

closet case said...

thanks, josh, really thanks. you are one of the nicest guys here in the blogosphere!

JCP said...

has partner shared how he copes? i am in the same boat.

luke lacson said...

i am lucky. i am grateful for a person like partner. -> indeed. lucky and blessed. Cherish him and never stray again. hakuna matata!