SATC: having a baby is an option?

Its still that "coulda woulda shoulda" episode where Miranda finds out she's pregnant. And she quickly made up her mind to have an abortion. "i dont need this right now."

funny how it was so easy for her to make that decision. and as much as i feel for her, career woman that she is, im still appalled at how easy it is to consider having a baby as an option. its like having a baby is not the accessory you need right now. just like shoes or bags. maybe its my uber-catholic upbringing.

perhaps i can stretch my understanding to include a teenage pregnancy, or a gang-rape victim. but i would like to think that even for such people, deciding to have an abortion is still one huge nightmare or a protracted one at that.

but it wasnt like that at all for Miranda. (although she decides to have it anyway, perhaps playing up to American Moral Majority. though for the reason of the biological timeclock ticking away more than anything).

and i recall how a friend in college actually went through that painful ordeal.

she was one of my best friends. she was smart and pretty and flirty. and she had a string of boyfriends. eventually, one of them knocked her up. and she was just devastated. she agonized over the decision and went ahead with it. she grieved for awhile, in secrecy (only two other people knew about it). and then it was back to normal.

but it never really became normal. though she started a career in broadcasting with so much promise, her relationships got in the way. she was always having problems with men. until now.

my sense is that a decision like abortion will never leave anybody unscathed. wounds like that cut so deep. and these manifest in such strange ways like failing in relationships, substance abuse or low self esteem.

and i just felt so sad for all the women out there who had to make that decision. i wish they didnt or they wouldnt.