i havent seen daybreak. but ive wanted to. just didnt want to go watch alone. im blog-hopping and i note two blogs talking about the song nag-iisa, wala ka na played in the movie. so i played the youtube...
... and immediately, from the high of today, i became catatonic just listening to it.
and my break-up sinks in once again. how my life has become so different now. how for seven years it was nice, well at least for the first five years... or during the time i was still deceiving myself...
i havent cried as much as i did with my previous break-ups. i actually cried just a bit on the night of the break-up, coming home for the first time since. i dont know why.
some people tell me i look so happy, so.. relieved over the break-up. by and large, i am. but i cannot deny the few moments it hits me.
like now.
nag-iisa. wala na siya.
and i realize why... it will be one month tomorrow since we broke up.
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Cheer up! You've got lots of supportive friends and dear readers. I love listening to that song and I'll admit that I didn't realize that it might have a powerful effect on you.
di madali ang pinagdadaanan mo. pero ika nga, lilipas din yan.
ragnar
let it all out cc.
(hugs)
thanks, people. well it has really just been a month. i think i shouldnt be too hard on myself. sometimes i wish i could have a good cry, just to let it all out (as trey suggests). but i couldnt.
am now up and about again. hugs, people!
sabi nga nila, don't cry cuz it's over. be happy cuz it happened. people come and go.
siguro naman CC, lalong tumataas ang market value mo. di ba? wahihihi!
wag ka na malungkot. there is more to life.
"One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters - whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished...
...Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.
--- Closing Cycles - Paulo Coelho ----
One month of break up is the most critical stage as for me.. because it is like passing a crossroad wherether you be going back with your ex or just really ending the relationship, going ahead then continue with your life... and finding a new deserving relationship. Believe me once this stage ends you'll soon be alright. :D
hmmnn... yan yung last movie na pinanood namin ng "friend" ko at favaorite din nya yang song na yan. And it was also are last nyt. :(
cheer up CC...you know you deserve the best...dink, eat and enjoy...
hey gharyjohn. yes. the moment has passed and im back to 'normal'. =) as for market value, im desperately trying to increase it! thanks for dropping by!
hello chris! I actually visited your site and read this post of yours by Paulo Coelho. it is so appropriate. and im so ready to close it for good. but circumstances prevent me, for now. thanks for the vote of confidence. im going to be alright!
ouch, josh. welcome to the club! hugs!
salamat, dats. you always cheer me up...
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