affirmed...yet...

im feeling affirmed tonight.

im touched by the way some of my dates have signified wanting something deeper with me. they are all nice people. i enjoy being with them at different levels. and im really flattered that they see me as someone they'd like to have a relationship with.

but i just dont feel that 'spark'. and besides, im just too busy now to commit. (or maybe that's just my excuse. even though i was told by aura reader not to commit this year. haha).

the range; from 21 to twice that. hihi. cute no? i try to squeeze in time to be with each one from time to time. kaso, some would want to meet more frequently. i cant offer that. i know they get hurt. especially since they cant make demands. im sorry but i can go against what i feel.

but truth of the matter. well... yung gusto ko di naman ako gusto. irony of ironies. or maybe i like him precisely because he doesnt like me?!? all i know is that i still think of him. but not as much as before.

karmic retribution? haha. or... i just cant have everything. (i shouldnt anyway)