my dad calls enigma prison break. pinoy version raw ni wentworth. but that's not the story.enigma's never really expressed his feelings for me, save for the miss-yous. one time, while talking over the phone, he was teasing me that i was probably with someone else at the condo. (may take home raw ako) of course not. so he insisted that i shout 'i love partner"! which i promptly did. "masunurin ka naman masyado" was his chuckling reply. i guessed that he really didnt want me to shout it out. so i shouted "i love you, enigma". he became quiet. i said it three times more.
then i finally heard. "i love you, cc" ... i said it again "i love you, e.." and i heard it again "i love you, cc" in a very soft, whispering voice...
followed by a sigh. "sabi ko di na ako magsasabi ng i love you. i broke my own rule."
"ano ang feeling mo na binreak mo rule mo?"
"ok lang naman. i love you, cc.."
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At least he means it. I've had partners in the past that say it without meaning it. That's why I NEVER say it unless I mean it.
good for you, john. it took me a while to admit it to myself and finally to enigma, too. but now you got me thinking. i say this to partner regularly. and i mean it everytime because i really do love him though its not accompanied by the rush of emotions anymore...
never said i luv u to anyone...hhmmnnn... even to myself, yikes!
There's such a thing as loving someone but not being "in love" with them. Maybe you love him, but are no longer "in-love" with him. I've come to the conclusion that there's no such thing as a perfect relationship nor a perfect life. You really can't have it all. I say stick to the status quo for now, so long as no one breaks the rules and the boundaries have been set by all parties. But there will come a day when you have to choose.
josh - start saying it to yourself! FEEL GOOD!
john - in-love is what i feel for enigma. yes, i am at status quo, will try to preserve it as long as i could...
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