Friday, May 23, 2008
to er is human
maybe it's having been isolated for three days from 'civilization'. maybe it's because of deprivation for the past week. whatever it is, i was suddenly looking at this gardener right outside my villa in this mountain resort. i was looking at him like he was kentucky fried chicken. i felt an urge to flirt, seduce and even harass the poor guy. and he was just a plain-looking. he was as 'er'* as one could get. i didnt do it but i suddenly got reminded of a story i read from looong ago.
in my teen years, as i was discovering my sexuality, i came across an article in mod magazine (that used to be the 'cosmo' mag of the 70's to 80's). i cant remember the title anymore but the story is about how the author. married with kids, was struggling with his homosexual urges. in constant denial, he was pre-occupying himself with work and so many other things, just to keep his mind off his urges. however, all that became futile when they hired a gardener. suddenly, his fantasies were focused on this man-servant. and how he couldnt take his eyes off him as he did his gardening.
the lust drove him crazy, to the point where he actually seduced the gardener one time when his wife and kids were away. he arranged that plants be brought to the master's bedroom. as the guy was all sweaty, fixing the plants, he came from behind and groped him. and soon enough, he was having his way with him. but only until his wife unexpectedly walked in on them and raised hell. the story ended on a sad note, as his wife left him and brought all the kids.
anyway, i suddenly understood for a moment that insanity. how lust could just get into your head. and reason, even taste, just abandons you.
*link is to discreet manila's definition of 'er"
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8 comments:
Hey, I do "shrimps", too. You should try soldiers. Few of them are good looking but they are the best fuckers indeed.
CC, maybe it isn't "taste" that left you... maybe what left you are all the expectations you have of yourself when you are in the world you have made or grown accustom to. at our core, perhaps, we just need to connect.. maybe that's what it is to be human.
if you happen to drop in our place, you know na what to do. hehehe
nice one cc... tsk tsk sad for him. so many stories like this
I struggle with my urges everyday
one to many for a day I think
sometimes its what I just want to do...
the more I satisfy them, then I want more
obsessively
maybe its an addiction already
hey borg_queen! wow. im still trying to seduce my 1st gardener! soldier pa! hehehe
thanks, anonymous one. profound. maybe...
hiya ming meows. san ko po ilalagay yung halaman? hehehe
thanks for reading, kai!
very well put, onai... ooh. addiction...
you mean "ERR"
you didn't get it, anonymous one. ;)
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