yes, light is showing at the end of the tunnel... a tunnel i made myself. its not yet over but so much heaviness lifted from my heart.
and really, the strength and the courage to right the wrongs, untangle the knots came from God. and indulge me as I acknowledge how my faith in Him has shown me what has to be done. But beyond that, it is short of miraculous how all these transpired maturely, peacefully. that was all i prayed for as i fixed this. both partner and enigma showed much temperance and understanding, totally undeserved by me. so it must have been divine. and all your best wishes and prayers channeled to make this a peaceful resolution. thank you all.
the gospel says it all - the grateful leper, i call it. and i am exactly like that leper - in this state of dis-ease, hurting people, hurting others for gratification, for affirmation. i couldn't have survived if He did not take pity on me. and yes, my faith has saved me.
i wish i could always be this strong, this focused. i guess with a lot of prayer, i could be. ill try my darndest best to stay this way. again, from the bottom of my heart, thank you... Thank You, God.