Sunday, October 14, 2007

Gratitude

yes, light is showing at the end of the tunnel... a tunnel i made myself. its not yet over but so much heaviness lifted from my heart.

and really, the strength and the courage to right the wrongs, untangle the knots came from God. and indulge me as I acknowledge how my faith in Him has shown me what has to be done. But beyond that, it is short of miraculous how all these transpired maturely, peacefully. that was all i prayed for as i fixed this. both partner and enigma showed much temperance and understanding, totally undeserved by me. so it must have been divine. and all your best wishes and prayers channeled to make this a peaceful resolution. thank you all.

the gospel says it all - the grateful leper, i call it. and i am exactly like that leper - in this state of dis-ease, hurting people, hurting others for gratification, for affirmation. i couldn't have survived if He did not take pity on me. and yes, my faith has saved me.

i wish i could always be this strong, this focused. i guess with a lot of prayer, i could be. ill try my darndest best to stay this way. again, from the bottom of my heart, thank you... Thank You, God.

7 comments:

JOSH said...

thank you, sa tagalog SALAMAT, sa "LAMAT" (broken), dat which was broken, now appreciated and made whole again. :)

closet case said...

galeng galeng mo naman, josh.

Anonymous said...

c'mon you just want a better dick than another, so can we just leave God out of it? i perfectly understand your feelings for your guys, but getting religious about it is way too dramatic and unneccessary. where was God when you betrayed your partner and wrote about it with pride? where was God when you lied? where was God when you hurt people you love? jesus, mary and joseph, gay men turn godly when jolted by some pain, but i bet god disappears with the sight of another beautiful dick.

closet case said...

am sorry you feel that way, anonymous reader. but i wish you well...

Anonymous said...

Continue having faith cc. it sounds easy but nah. Letting go of our own understanding and simply having faith that the Lord would be able to ease our pain is hard to do. But hey, your experience already says He can.

God bless.

lonely heart

closet case said...

thanks again, lonely heart! hugs

Anonymous said...

I've read on one of your posts that you believe in Christ who saved you from your sins. With this faith that you have, do you have the assurance that He acknowledged to save you & get you to heaven?

just like to share: there would be two things that God Himself will ask you when you see Him face-to-face...
1. Do you know who My Son is?

2. What have you done with Him?

i sure hope you'll be able to read & respond to this.

;)