im enjoying the single life, by and large. i actively date different people. and sometimes, i get to enjoy a great 'roll in the hay' with some of them. i am glad that there is this short list of people still willing to hang out with me. sadly though, there would still be times when i need to be with someone, when i need a date and none of them are available.
then i suddenly miss being in a relationship. being in a relationship is an almost-guarantee of being with someone special all the time, or at the very least, when it matters most. at least for me, i miss that assurance that i will have a date for this party or for that dinner or for that movie. i am 'committed' to spend time with my partner as he is as 'committed' to me.
that's what i don't have as single cc. there will always be times i need company and i couldnt get it.
and its worse than needing sex. i could easily get that. but i couldn't easily get that special way of relating to another person that makes you feel good inside.
don't i have friends? my closest, dearest friends are from way, way back. we hardly see each other because we all have our different lives and sets of friends. and i have to admit that relating with friends are different. there's a time that being with friends are hugely satisfying. but there are also times that i'd want to be with a non-friend, a special someone.
oh well, ill snap out of this soon.