WARNING: EMO POST
my official statement for the past two years has been: ive moved on. i feel no rancor, no bitterness. i wish him well. i was hoping we'd stay as friends. i dont know why he refuses my friendship.
we'd still bump into each other at the activities of the barkada. i would sense his presence and immediately, would just avoid crossing paths. that meant being mindful of where he was and wasn't, or where his partner was or wasn't, too. and he would avoid me too. but we could co-exist in that same time-space, and just ignore each other.
the extreme situation was that out-of-town activity last year.
as much as i love that barkada and enjoy their company, i've started to shy away. there are times i'd like to play badminton with them again but...
and yet i stuck to my official statement.
not until yesterday did i finally admit to myself that
i avoid him because i still am angry at him. i hate the way he lied to me all those years. i hate that to the very end, he was denying his relationship with the guy. only to end up as partners to this day. i hate that he is still holding up the process for asset turn-over.
i hate his guts.