Wednesday, July 28, 2010

just said no

just came from a date with this guy i like having sex with. we get together once every few months. he would come over the condo and we'd have wonderful sex everytime. he still turns me on. he knows what buttons to push. and he's such a great bottom.

he sends text messages on certain occassions. last week, he was teasing me about my many dates and as a consequence, the way i have forgotten him. then he asks me why i never took him out on a date. i told him that its not that i didnt want to but i just felt we both wanted to stay at home instead. but since he was nice anyway, i told him we'd go out on a date.

we had dinner and watched a movie, the way dates do. he actually looks better now, still a turn on for me. but after the movie, i decided to just take him home. though i was originally planning to have sex again, i changed my mind. and he had that look of disappointment on his face.

driving home, i was wondering why. partly it was getting late and i didnt want to stay up late fucking. then i had to think whether he expected to sleep over or to be brought home after the deed is done. or it really is andropause setting in (male menopause).

then a voice inside me asked "are you saving it up for someone special?". that last question made think. and it seemed like it resonated more than the others.


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13 comments:

Nimmy said...

"Everyone is responsible for guarding his or her own heart."

a good mantra so that you won't worry much about letting other people down. :)

MkSurf8 said...

epifania itoh!

Ming Meows said...

anong saving? virginity? LoL

naalala ko tuloy yung kantang last christmas...:)

Mave said...

So who is that someone you saving for? All you fans will br disappoint to know.

Mu[g]en said...

then a voice inside me asked "are you saving it up for someone special?". that last question made think. and it seemed like it resonated more than the others.

Must be the same reason why I avoided doing a "full throttle" in bed for quite some time.

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Guyrony said...

I ask thee: saving for whom?

Isn't sex just an act without the outpour of feelings?

Jay Quiambao said...

"Saving all my love for youuuu!"

rudeboy said...

Sex is sex. Love is love.

You can't love everyone you have sex with, and you can't have sex with everyone you love.

This, too, shall pass.

closet case said...

@nimmy nice mantra. yeah, i was looking out for my own heart. a heart that just didn't want to have sex last night.

@mksurf8 haha. perhaps. i really don't know.

@ming not virginity. virility. at a certain age, it is no longer a bottomless pit of sexual energy.

@mave hahaha what fans? no one in particular, really. i just want to keep it for someone ELSE, not my date last night.

@mugen so you know how i feel? so you are saving up for someone??? exciting!

@guyrony i used to be able to perform that way. sex as a pure act. but not anymore. there must be some feeling involved. at the very least, an attraction beyond physical.

@jay LOL

@rudeboy yes, this too will pass.

JohnM said...

Gee, thanks sir CC... I know naman you're saving it all for me. Hahaha! Kidding aside, I think it's a combination of your andropause and your growing distaste for noncomittal sex? Well anyway, whatever it is, be happy you didn't engage in something you didn't want. I think it's time to embrace singularity completely - yes kasama pati sex.What do you think?

Anonymous said...

oh my...

what has become of you?

my my, oh my..

FiftyShadesOfQueer said...

This post made me think. I guess my opinion is best left unsaid as I unravel more posts.