Thursday, July 8, 2010

i didnt mean to

i really didnt mean to hurt you. you have to know that. but im so sorry for the pain i've caused.

i did say that it was all for fun, right? i did tell you not to expect. that i can't offer anything. you said it was fine. you agreed.

and now, after some months of this situation, you are hurting. i'm really sorry.

i didn't mean for you to fall. but i know that despite all my earlier disclaimers, it is still my fault. and im sorry for the pain.

i didnt even plan this for this evening. weren't we just having fun? but when i broached the topic of wanting to hold you and kiss you again, i told you that i'm now questioning whether i should. whether it was the right thing to do.

then it dawned on you. my hesitation was my admission. that i was not mr right. i was just mr right now. that burst the bubble of hope. a bubble i also helped build. because i was selfish. because i was near-sighted.

im sorry for hurting you this way.

if you hate me, id understand. i dont like me, too, either.

10 comments:

Jay Quiambao said...

expectations really ruin everything.

Anonymous said...

damn!

oh damn!!

orallyours said...

Aaaargh! asan na yung blade?

stepfordboy said...

few words spoken, so much blood spilled

Ming Meows said...

ikumpisal mo yan teh...

Jepoy Dacuycoy said...

nakakarelate ako :|

paci said...

i do not like such a feeling. like limbo. or is it purgatory.. i'm losing touch as well.

Anonymous said...

so can relate to this ryt now and it's not a good feeling at all, especially when you're the type of person who's really likable and is everybody's friend.

Anonymous said...

how sweet!! buti ikaw cc marunong magsorry, sya hindi. potah lang talaga!!!

Anonymous said...

it is sad. however, story has always 2 sides.